It's not a diet...it's a weigh of life!

The time has come...I must make changes!

I have been going on a diet for years, I have bought smaller clothes hoping to encourage me to lose weight, I have bought AND sold unused treadmills, I have invested in every weight loss video there is known to man and never used them and now years later I have nothing to show for it, but albums full of pictures that I cringe to even look at. My eyes focus on those certain spots every-single-time! I am tired of people telling me, "Kaylynn, you are not fat", yes I am, pictures, scales, the size tag in my jeans and my sweet Dr. don't lie. I am tired of having limited places to shop. I do not enjoy having to shop at specialty places, with lousy choices, and spending tons of money. I am over it!

I don't want to be the mom that hides from the camera or positions their child just right in the picture to try and "cover up" what everyone already sees anyway. I don't want to spend hours cropping myself from pictures just because I am too lazy to get healthy. I don't want to always be behind the camera, I want to be in front of it!

Most importantly I don't want my daughter to fall into this same rut! I want her to make healthy choices. I want to be able to chase her around the yard when she starts walking (without running out of breath), I want her to be my cheer leader at 5K races and be in that stroller that I push the entire way and eventually be my running buddy, I want her to see me make healthy eating choices! I don't want to spend my time with her while I lay in a hospital bed because of a disease I could have avoided if I would have just taken better care of myself. I lost my MP, my grandmother, way too early in life because she would not take care of her health. For me, this just isn't an option. I have too much life to live!

I have no interest in ordering food from an 800 number that you just nuke and add water too, I have no interest in drinking 3 shakes and eating two energy bars every day, I have no interest in attending meetings with fellow over-eaters and confessing my midnight snack sin, I have no interest in going under the knife and having weight loss surgery just to be restricted to certain foods anyway, I have no interest in working out in a circle with other people who are more interested in socializing than losing weight. I don't need to pay $40 a month to socialize. And last but not least, I have ZERO interest in supporting the "magic weight loss pill" industry. I don't want an attorney, from Downtown Houston, soliciting to me and my family because I made 3 easy payments for a pill that damaged by heart. I know plenty of people who all of the above worked for, and that is great, but they aren't for me, please don't take it personally :)


I AM interested in making healthy food choices and getting active. My new outlook is "It's not a diet; it's a weigh of life." I now know I have to have my favorite Chick-fil-A in moderation, I need to replace my snack drawer at home with healthier options, I need to send the Schwan's man packing to a different house (thanks Janey), I need to pre-plan my meals and throw away our to-go menus, except Iguana Joe's, I need to stop buying ice cream and my beloved Red Diamond Sweet Tea, oh how I will miss thee. There are lots of things I need to do and WILL DO!

I stopped watching The Biggest Loser a few seasons ago because it was just a huge cry fest every...single...week. Not every person who is overweight has a story that has caused them to turn to food and over indulge. I am living proof. We all have things that happen to us in our childhood but we can't possibly use it as a crutch our entire life. Trust me, if that were the case, I would be getting a free ride! I think 99% of people use different things as a crutch because they are allowed too, for me that has never been and never will be an option. The Biggest Loser is just an expensive therapy session and most contestants have gone back to their "old" ways once therapy at the ranch is over. I am not a big eater, I don't gorge on food and I rarely eat late in the evenings. I just don't make sensible decisions when I do take the time to eat and I don't exercise consistently. My sister says I make a big mistake by never eating breakfast, also. I know with out a doubt she is right!

Last year Trent bought me the new Wii Fit hoping to motivate me to lose weight. I loaded it in the Wii, entered my name, my height, my weight...and there it happened right in front of my face...the Mii blew up into a perfectly round ball. I have not touched the thing since. I am pretty sure it is covered in dust bunnies as "wii" speak :) But that is going to change too. I am going to pick it up and start using it again. I am going to get active in fun ways. I am on the way to a new "Mii"...haha!

Every weight loss blog begins with pictures right?! Well, here we go, here are some pictures. The pictures I post in 6 months WILL BE vastly different.

I am doing this for my sweet girl! Even she is a little surprised :)

 

If you know me well, then you know I never allow a full body shot picture...EVER. Obviously I was not aware this picture was being taken! I was too immersed in picking out the best pumpkin for Brooklyn's first Halloween :) This picture was 6 weeks post delivery put not much has changed since then!

Yes, I have a goal weight but I will never tell! I must keep some sort of privacy :) But I will share with you that I would like to lose 50 lbs. I will be posting goals every week and a weight loss ticker. I feel like if my "business" is out on the street I will hold myself accountable, maybe just a little, anyway.

There...I said it! Everyone has heard it...I am on my way to a healthier ME!

(That wasn't too painful)